the demise of...

This blog will, for now or maybe forever, be left to hang as it is in the WWW because its owner has moved on to a higher place.
This chapter of her life is now closed.

Thank you for visiting.

Hey Everyone~!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!

i am glad the year's coming to an end... yet at the same time, many things have happened in my life... not all bad thou... there were good things too and i thank God for those times...

wells, new year, new resolutions this time...

grandpa's death anniversary is in a few days...
i still miss that old little bugger who's almost senile in so many ways...
i hope he's doing fine in heaven waiting for us...
=)
its comforting to know that he accepted Christ and was secured a ticket into heaven just before his demise...
i cant wait to see him in heaven again...

wells, its mighty late and i gota go sleep...
if u guys want pictures of my bali trip, head on down to my LJ...
there's plenty there... =)

oh, and also a resolution list for 2007... =)

Sheep Sheep you...
night night everyone...











we're always caught in circles...
round and round and round...
don't u ever get sick of it?
don't u ever develop a phobia?
and STILL...
we're goin round and round and round...

imagination? not...

i hope every one ('cept kuang-er and miss yellow) is duly satisfied that Danny DOES exist...
i know how its been so many years that i have always mentioned him but never gotten down to presenting him to anyone but it aint important right?
its not like as if he's my BF or anything...

but i hope that since i have already asked him to show his face to most of my grps of frens, that it helps those people who think i am tryin to pull a fast one...
HE EXISTS~!!

he's a classic gem tt i will keep for life...
but nah~ not BF material...

i am...

tired...
and pissed...

dun make plans with me unless u intend to see it thru WITHOUT planning a thousand and one things to get in its way...
WTF~!
might as well dun bother right? such a waste of your time and mine...
sheesh~ not the first time and i hope it will be the last...

chao chee bye~!

off...

for camp.. =)
will be back soon...

i love gossip...

so i was having a conversation with someone last night about someone when someone told me that someone's private life details were juicy...
initially hesitant to tell me what the juicy privates were about, she finally gave in after making me promise to never mention the juicy private details and if i absolutely had to, to make sure i dun ever mention names...

**but i shall give u guys a hint later as to whose someone i am talking about...**

so the juicy private details, which can also be classified as gossip went like this...

BG info:
i was talkin to someone about someone's boss and that someone told me that that someone's BF recieved an SMS from that someone that he couldnt understand cuz he doesnt know english to save his poor french life so he got his fren to translate it for him... and his fren told her, and a few others, what was in the SMS...

me: WHAT WHAT??? TELL ME~! WHAT ABOUT THE SMS?
fren X: wells, it involved a banana, hot water and something else, i cant remember wat...
me: huh?? wats so juicy about that? (i very innocent one de okie~!!)
fren: Aiyah~! she said in the SMS that she misses giving him a blow job in the shower la~!!!!
me: WHAT~!???~?! SOMEONE?~!?~!??~!(replaced her name for privacy issues) OMG~!! THAT IS DISGUSTING~!! GROSS~!! Y THE FARK WOULD SHE DO THAT?
fren: aiyah... everyone is sexual being la...
me: eh~! that is a lame excuse okie~! please la... sexual being my arse la...
fren: wat?? its true wat...

so yesh... that was the piece of juicy gossip...
and it was classified as gossip to me cuz someone doesnt seem like the kind to jump into showers to blow french horns... (lame pun intended~)

HAHA~!
i am still smiling to myself tryin to imagine an ancient being drapped in brown rags humming opera songs to stimulate him even further while being down there... HAHAHAHA~!!!


(now now someone, you said i shouldn't mention names but you NEVER said anything about hinting~!! *Winks*)

now, for more info, please refer to previous post for more info and hints...

Of joggin and bosses... AND being in love with them...

JY is in love with her boss...
confirmed...
certified...
reason?
simple...

me: where u go just now?
JY: who told u i go out?
me: your brother la...
JY: oh ya, i went joggin...
me: joggin??? for wat?
JY: cuz my boss said: "you are fat..."
me: WA LAO... fadhil ask u to lose weight u dun want... then your boss say u fat only u go joggin... WTF MAN~!

i told u right?
she likes him la...
JY is in LOVE with her BOSS~!!!

HOLIDAY~!!

scooting off for a holiday this wed and wun be back till d 12th...
=)
BALI again~!

but i hope to get some more shut eye and of course nice photos this time round IF i bother to charge the camera's batteries...
or mayb i'll just use no-rechargable ones...
see la...

i have roaming~!!!
so SMS me to help me remember u guys still exist~!
whether i reply or not, now THAT is a different story~!

so i love u guys...
take care while i am gone..
and stay strong cuz JESUS IS RIGHT BEHIND U~!!

i wonder...

it just occured to me, this tot...
if we singaporeans go out to aussie or the US of A for 3 three years and come back "slanging" and "accenting" like no ones business in THEIR native accents and slangs, y dun the ang mohs, or hell, even the PRCs AND the india indians who study here for three years, some even more, go back to their native lands speaking singlish?~??

does it mean we're too fake and constantly feel that our ang moh counterparts are better so if we speak like them it makes us sound smarter?
OR
does it mean that we singaporeans are so smart, we recreated and evolved and massacred the english language so bad it is beyond comprehension so thus also too hard to replicate?

go figure...

the truth of the matter...

the truth bethind y i left u was simple...

i found out about all your lies...
from the beginning to the end, from the end back to the start...
as to y i didnt confront u?
simple..
wat use was there?
there was no point cuz i know u would just lie to me all over again and try to cover things up like u did before...

i am not stupid mind u...
i try to act stupid but i am not...

u should have just left things the way they were instead of sending me that email...
u should have just left things the way they were instead of callin me and askin me stupid things that u honestly, could have figured out for yourself...

i am not goin to lie, i was disappointed with u and your lies...
i trusted u so much and yet u still lied thru your teeth like tt to me...
also despite u apaprently swearing upon your life tt u woujld never lie to me...
guess tt in itself was a lie too aye?

if u were me, i bet u would feel as much disappointment as i do now...
and yes, somehow, a part of me doesnt want to see u again even if by chanced accident...
i hate people who lie to me...
at least dun let me find out that u lied...
and at the very least, if i did find out, give me the truth...
dun continue to lie to me to try to cover up the lie that was already told...
it doesnt do u good and neither does it do me any good...

and dun forget, u got your job thru me...
and dun forget how much u owe me...
just live in the knowledge that someone out there cared about u alot once before...
and u lied to her... u sick conniving bastard~

i could continute to stay about and be a sucker but nah...
i am done with acting stupid...
dun wana be lied to no more...
dun wana try no more...

i figured u werent worth my time anymore...
but those months with u, minus the lying, were a fun few months...
thank u for healing my broken heart then...
but i am done with my fun usin u as a rebound...
so... u go have your fun now...

i feel i am better off without u...
unless u can convince me otherwise tt is...

Kena another tag...

The Kaypoh Tag

3 schools I went to: PLMGPS, PLMGSS and Ngee Ann Poly

3 things in my handbag : my zen nano, my make up pouch, my money pouch...

3 things i do when im stressed : eat, talk to myself, sleep...

3 places i go to on a daily basis : work, home, toilet

3 favourite fruits : mangos, strawberries, durians~

3 names i go by : aye, oei, audrey

3 of my fav food : dark chocolates, tiramisu, cheese cake...

who is in the hse with me : my mom, my youngest bro, my maid

who am i thinking of right now : someone... cant reveal the identity of the person yet...

who did i last talk to on the phone : hidayue

who do i wish i am with right now? : hehe~ cant reveal the identity of the person...

who did i sit with during 5th period in class : wat fifth period?

who was the last person i uttered love to : isaac... my darling boy... =( i'll miss his little antics man...

who gets on my nerves most in school? : some idiot called vas in my course who acts like she owns the world...

where is the last place i took a ride to? : church to bukit gomback MRT station...

what was the last thing i ate? : cheese cake~

what do i like most about school? : my K2 class... and some of the colleagues...

what is my favourite colour? : red and black

what was the last movie i watched? : "the producers" again on VCD...

when did i start school? : huh? jia lat... 1985? i think... or is it 1986?? duno man~

when did i last go to the mall? : mall ah? hmm... this afternoon...

3 bloggers to do this : JY? errs, who else is free ah? Pat and erm... whoever else la... LOL...

some meme (tagged by JY)

10 songs you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. jay zhou's new album
2. some song in her computer
3. oceans will part
4. once again
5. HIM
6. aiyah... doest tt already consist of more than 10 songs???
7. death cab for cutie's marching bands of manhatten
8. almost here
9. kid's songs... thanks to work
10. chinese nonsense

9 things you look forward to:
1. loving
2. feeling loved
3. experiencing His infinite love
4. making lots of money
5. Good sex
6. phantom of the opera
7. more and more sleep
8. killin someone
9. becoming stone

8 things you like to wear:
1. thongs
2. g-strings
3. no bra
4. gothic
5. trimmed eyebrows
6. nail polish
7. light make up
8. a mysterious knowing smile on my face...

7 things that annoy you:
1. idiots who act smart ie. my boss
2. people who go to aussie/ USA/ england for one year and speak in an ang moh slang... dun tell me 1 year of accents managed to override your 20 years of singlish kkz... go and die la... so fake~
3. people who act like they own the world...
4. people who dun have brains of their own...
5. having ppl ask me to update them on how many ppl i have already dumped...
6. hearing my parent talk like they know everything
7. my ego...

6 things you say most days:
1. Wah Lau/ Kao... FARK LA~!
2. Chee bye
3. eh fark la
4. ni na beh chee bye... ask her go eat shit and die la...
5. Fark you la~!
6. Shuddup~!
[i just realized how vulgar i am... dammit~ need to change...]

5 things you do everyday:
1. wake up, pee, brush teeth, take bath, go work...
2. snooze for one hour before doing the above...
3. scream and shout for more time...
4. gossip...
5. think about.................

4 people you want to spend more time with:
1. first spot would go to him... but haiZzzz
2. anna, hidayue, sophia, gill... my colleagues...
3. JY, the slut~
4. family

3 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. pretty woman
2. final destination trilogy
3. sin city
[obviously many more others]

2 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Jay's songs
2. her playlist...
[tts more than two... but who cares?]

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. heh... u and i know who so i shant say it...

stress again... ASSIGNMENTS~!! =(

time~!!!
i need more time~!!!
especially time to finish writing all my blasted observations and time to sleep...

and i hate the fact that i have to work over time, in the form of goin back for concert rehearsals at 7.40am on a BLASTED FARKING SATURDAY morning and NOT get paid and i hate the fact that my sup was being an asshole when it came to giving out instructions that she NEVER gave before, and worse, being purposefully whiny about it that she did wen in actual fact she didnt...

why does she have to compete with everyone? just because she wants to outdo everyone, she puts everyone out.. doesnt she realize that everyone is tryin also? but giving her stingy behaviour and crazy ass attitude, no wonder everyone is more inclined to slack than give of their best...

shit~
watever... i have more observations to write and my blasted thumb is not helpin very much and ARGH~!!!

STRESS~!!!!
i have an assignment due onthe 15th next week and guess wat?
i HAVENT even smelled the question papers~!
H-A-

i wish i were a robot...
i'd plug myself into the socket so i wouldnt run out and i'd do everything at one shot...

now all i need to do is wish...
coffee and milo combinations can only help so much ya know...

Saddam Hussein...

note: i am not tryin to defend him...
i am just asking valid questions...
if i offend anyone in the process, sorry...
my blog, my views... watever...
not happy, don't read... exit now...
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

so Mr saddam hu -killed-so-many-people-fair-and-square-during-war-and-is-goin-to-get-hanged-for-it- ssein is gettin hanged for war crimes, during which he killed many innocent people...

now, in the first place, y is he the only one being hanged?
shouldnt the blasted US pressie also get hanged cause he ALSO killed many innocent people during his so called pre-emptive action against iraq when they were supposedly hanging on to WMDs?

so just because the US pressie is a si beh tua kang political figure and his nation is a super power, it means tt he can get away free? for ALSO doin the same thing saddam hu -is-goin-to-die-by-hanging- ssein did?
declare war and kill people in the process...

dun mind me but honestly, is it right that u kill someone to teach someone that killing is wrong?

and worse, carryin out supposed pre-emptive action and come up with NOTHING to prove that what they did was justified...
"just in case" my arse la...
if your technology is so great that your blasted atas and si beh kao smart scientists can see thru to the inner most layers of the earth, i dun see y u cant use the same xray vision to scan iraq from outer space, take clear pictures FIRST then go into the country to source for it...
y go in and blindly and just whack where u can whack?

if u, as the US are not happy that they crashed your twin towers, then just say that u are buay song and u want revenge la...
of course i care for those people who died in the twin towers incident... but if u wana seek revenge, please la, just say it for it is, dun try to twist and hao lian your atas english thinking the people from this part of the world cant see wat u are really tryin to do...

and wat is the purpose of war in the first place?
during war, people fight to conquer cuz they dun wana be conquered and casualities in the form of innocent people cant be avoided...

and so y dun we blasted hell bomb the whole of japan away since they tortured so many countrys people all over asia?
oh wait, i forgot its cuz we are asian and we are not as tua kang as the US pressie... we canot happy happy not happy any any how kill people one...
cuz that equates to murder...

in these parts of the world, if our state rules for an ang moh to be caned for vandalizing, just like everyone else who lives in this country, the ang moh's country very buay song one... cuz we are not tua enuff to any how any how whack their white skinned people...
we are yellow skinned so we are unpure, tainted and unworthy to issue and carry out punishments like that...

oh well...
to me, hanging/ death sentences are just to satisfy and placate the anger and hatred in the people who came away victims... the true test of humanity and real religious faith is learning to forgive the one who wronged u and punishing him/ her with compassion, the same kind of compassion he/ she lacked when the evil deed was done...

to teach them that harming another person is not right and so that they would learn to develop a sense of guilt and remorse and hopefully, one day, come back and contribute back to society and re-pay the people whom he/she has hurt, by many folds more...

as a christian state, they should always plead forgiveness for these people for in the bible, Jesus himself, after being tortured and mocked and crucified STILL asked God to forgive them for they knew not what they were doing. He showed what it was to love, to forgive to set free the captives from sin by dying on the cross so long ago...

of course as human we will feel very song song if the people who did us wrong were punished, but is this how God wants us to live our lives?

if we cant even follow his simple instructions to love and be Christ-like, how can it then be justified that we are given absolute power over someone else's life?
everyone is accountable to God, be it my Lord, God Jesus Christ or their own gods...
if they have sinned, they shall have to pay for it for the rest of eternity...

so y take justice into our own hands?
if it is just to appease those who have come away as victims then those directions are not right to follow as we are doing nothing but doing what the devil wants us to do...
assume and pressume to own a life and take it away if he/ she did something bad...

don't try to take God's place...
everything that is happening in the world now is punishments for the sins we have commited...
and by taking another person's life, we have flouted His commandment: thou shalt not kill... and as He has declared and so many already know, if u flout one, u have flouted ALL His commandments.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

my thoughts, my comments, think i dun make sense?
*Shrugz*
wells, one man's meat is another man's poison...
one man's dream is another man's nightmare...
think about it...

Good night...

Origami Roses... (My first attempt the the Kawasaki Rose)

SO~!
i sat here the whole afternoon watching vids and TRYIN my hell best to fold the Kawasaki rose...
*Faints*

its so complicated man~
i doubt i am goin to attempt it again any time soon...
but there is the result of my fist completed attempt after following this site for instructions...





so how? wat do u think? does it look thrashy?
i have a sneaky feeling i did some of the parts wrongly but Gah~
least it looks decent enuff to me...

anyways, been two days since i last updated...
been hanging about doing quite a bit of stuff...
the weekend just disappeared into nothing...
sighZzz...

rant~!
another assignment i have been procrastinating to do is goin to be due in 2 weeks...
someone shoot me already...
i hate essays...
gota do 2 of them~!!
Gah~!

i am so goin to die from doin essays one day...
just u wait and see...
i will die from the stress of the looming deadlines...

then again, i really shouldnt be ranting cuz if i were really that disciplined, i wouldnt spend the whole freaking afternoon tryin to do the above mentioned rose, but instead ,start reading for my essay...
i am such a doop...

i'm so sick and tired of childcare...
i wana be a sales girl, or at least be in a job where i can meet people...
i am actually thinking of applying for a counselling job...

but see, the irony of the whole damend thing is tt my own life in still neither here nor there and here i am tryin to attempt to help people..
such a contradiction...
but i do feel a personal sense of achievement when i speak to someone to share my views and opinions on how to handle their situations...
its not so much forcing them to take my advice, but knowing that i have already gave them more options than they have already thought of...
leaves them more leeway to get out of their problems...

*Grumbles about my decisions*
okie, off to take a much needed shower...
me ish smelly welly...
me ish neech to taking a bath...
*GrinZzz*
Bye People~!

reunions and such...

reuinions are bitter-sweet whether we wana admit it or not...
u either feel left out or welcomed...

i felt kinda odd actually, about attending my fren's wedding...
not only because someone from my church just passed away and its really saddening cuz she's so young and have left behind two lovely teenage children and a loving husband...
i really hope the family pulls thru...
*SobsSss*

i actually felt like cancelling on the wedding...
but i made danny dear make a decision cuz he was goin with me anyways, and topped with the fact i couldnt really decide...
but also cuz he was goin to be the one doing the driving from hougang to west coast back to orchard and after tt, backwards to send me home...
and he decided to take me...
so we went and i was gettin all jittery and such while waiting for him and on the
way there...

it felt a little odd at first but once the frens started coming in, everything was like it was 5/ 6 years ago...
everyone is mostly still the same innately, prettier and more dolled up at the very least...
and for the miniroty, WOW~! dramatic changes...

we've had the geek and VERY holy one become players...
HAHA~! so funny and odd to hear the holy one swearing off the tip of her tongue like it was such a natural thing...
really caught me by surprise considering she was the one holy nut who used to turn around after hearing me say the words "fark" to give me a preachy leangthy speech on how God dislikes behaviour like that and how i am doing satan a big favour by spilling such vulgar words out like that...

HAHA~! and the geek... WOW man... shocking to hear her little exploits...

so, danny was obviously mistaken the whole night...
haha... with me having to keep repeating that he wasnt my BF and stuff like tt...
we DIDNT even act like a couple loh...
we did nothing but squabble and squabble like we always do...
it kinda odd anyways...
danny and i have been together 11 years~!!!
11 LOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong years...
Gosh~! i feel old man~!
i am waiting for pictures now...
hopefully i will be able to get them asap...
i'll post...











and u:
take care...
my heart is cold and i need to let it thaw a while...
dun give up on me just yet...
or have u already?

giving up...

He reminded me that my tears and fears were in vain cuz He is my Father in Heaven...

and indeed, He is...






i've decided...
i'm giving up this life...

Dear you...

i am not running away per se...
i am just giving u your time out to do as u please...

i admit i am tired...
and i feel cold, hard...
but i still love u... more than anyting else in the world...

i just dun wana admit it...

don't be sad...

i am still alive and will come back one day...
though i am feeling a little better now, i stil have alot on my mind..
for those linked up to my LJ, u can head down there for more stuff...
those that are here, wells, either u tag me for my LJ addy or u wait...














PS: i still love u...

i want~!!!! {Edited}

i want the death note manga series...
i want~! i want~! i want~!!!
WANT~! WANT~! WANT~!

*Whines like a baby~!*



p/s: Thanks JY~!

[EDIT]
btw, i know i am selfish and stupid at times and i am sorry...
i dun mean to be tt way, i just am, thou i also know it shouldnt be an excuse...
and i am sorry for not being mindful of the fact tt there are ppl out there who have fears different from mine...
i guess i am just me.
selfish and useless as a sponge...

i'm sorry again..
[/EDIT]

I...

am back in full force...
LOL~!
been flirting with a certain certain someone new...
haha~ female... *OopSie*

hey, dun blame me man, i wanted to distance myself but i tot, why not?
i can have my fun and honestly, i have the most fun wen i do something like tt...
i'm not perfect, i have my quirks...
and this is one of them...

and oh, oh, before i forget, i have a few recordings of my stupid sup giving her stupid speech in uber bad english, please tag, msn or sms me for a copy if u wana hear it for yourself and be convinced... i promise u will flip out from laughin too much...

and i think i am falling sick again, the lump/growth in my throat is pissing me off again...
okie, i am off to entertain the guests~!!
=)


Happy lantern festival everyone~

new found fetishes...

i WANT to watch Deathnote~
who's in?

and after watching the king and the clown, me fetish for boys who look like girls who look like boys is back~!!
LEE JUN KI is SO BLASTEDLY HANDSOME~! PRETTY~! HANDSOME~! PRETTY~!! HANDSOMELY PRETTY~!!!